Thursday, December 24, 2009

All is Calm, All is Bright

Tuesday night, my parents and I loaded up and went down to our Civic Center Music Hall to see Mannheim Steamroller.

I've always loved their music, since I was a little girl. It was my Aunt Suzanne who gave Mom the Christmas Live! CD years ago. It quickly became a favorite. Every year, armed with a bag of gingersnaps and packets of apple cider, Mom and I would trim the tree to the rousing sounds of God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen and Angels We Have Heard on High, as well as the sweetness of Carol of the Birds. When they played those songs Tuesday night, I was thrilled. It was a beautiful experience, full of memories. But there was one song in particular that made me cry; even as I'm listening to it now, I have to dab my eyes a little.

It was many years ago that my mother's mother, my Mimi, attended Midnight Mass with her parents. At the parish of St. Boniface in Ft. Smith, the "German Church," as it was called, because it had been built of near-eternal limestone blocks and eternal love by the German immigrant population of the town, it wasn't uncommon to sing most if not all of the songs in German. One that they performed every year was an old, old carol, Stille Nacht.

Even when it wasn't Christmas, my Great Grandpa Bender would sing it as a lullaby to his children, especially his youngest daughter, his "Little Miss." My Mimi.

She in turn would sing it (in English) to her four children when they were young.

My favorite lullaby when I was growing up was Silent Night. Even now I can close my eyes and remember her voice, soft and low, as she sang me to sleep, rubbing my back lovingly.

Two Christmases ago I had the privilege of singing Stille Nacht to my Mimi, in German, as she would've heard it back then. She cried and hugged me close, "It sounds just like when Daddy sang it."

And so, I cried Tuesday night. They were tears of love and joy. In this past year, I've moved into an apartment with a friend of mine. I've completed a year of college. It feels strange to have been on this earth for nearly two decades. It feels strange not to have my mother right down the hall. I held her hand and leaned on her shoulder, and smiled through the tears.

The gingersnaps are homemade now. The cider is mulled. And the Christmas tree looks much more elegant now than it did covered in my kindergarten projects. Things change. They may be for better, they may be for worse, they may just be for the sake of change. But if we don't dive into them with the knowledge that God knows what He's doing throwing them at us, we're only hindering ourselves.

My mother and I are separated by a fifteen minute drive. My Mimi and I are separated by three hours on the highway. My Mimi and her beloved Daddy, who I pray I will someday meet, are separated by decades and distances man cannot measure. But it's alright. We will always have Christmas.

And we will always have Stille Nacht.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

This Weekend...

When I have some time to come up for air, I'm going to be posting some pictures, of our kitchen, a few endeavors we've been up to, etc. And in the next week or so, I'll be putting the finishing touches on a post about a "new" genre of music I've recently fallen in love with, that I want to share. It's utterly moving and deeply faithful, and I can't wait to show it off!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

The Real "Enemies"

I grew up in rural Oklahoma, and have lived in the state all my life. On things pertaining to our proud history I tend to be a bit of a stickler. I'm not a fan of Steinbeck for reasons of inaccuracy concerning my fair state in his writing, and it tends to set my hair on fire when people misrepresent parts of our history. And anyone with roots in Oklahoma will tell you one of our defining decades was the time between 1929, the crash of the stock market, and 1939, the outbreak of World War II.

It was a time of hardship and resilience, when the next generation of homesteaders, some of them my own ancestors, dealt with dry and overfarmed land that yielded little but dust storms. When the fledgeling government held the state together amidst economic depression, and where armed remnants of an age of outlaws crisscrossed their way through the state on their way to their own brand of fame and fortune.

Oklahoma had then a brand of lawman known for their toughness, Marshalls and Sheriffs unafraid to track down outlaws and bring them to justice, by court or bullet; the decision was often the fleeing suspects' themselves. They were men who got their rough hands dirty, who knew their guns like an extension of themselves. They were the men the FBI called on in its young years, when their polished agents had trouble tracking the country's most notorious lawbreakers; its designated Public Enemies.

Of course, it's doubtful J. Edgar Hoover would've called on these men to do what they did so well, had it not been for the advice of one man, a man who had worked with them before when he was head of the Investigation office in Oklahoma City.

A few weeks ago, my family and I went to see Public Enemies, the crime drama about the manhunt for John Dillinger. Johnny Depp of course plays the outlaw, and Christian Bale plays the man I've already mentioned, Mr. Melvin Purvis.

I couldn't quite get my finger on what bothered me about the movie as we watched it, so I pulled out my old Oklahoma History reader from high school when I got home. And there I found it.

To be fair, I think that the movie did a fine job of portraying him as an honorable, competant and human man. Evidence of his character is frequently shown, but too many facts are misrepresented.

First of all, Dillinger is portrayed as the films "antihero," and we're meant to grow attached to him, to root for him, etc. I'm pretty sure I was going against the grain to be pulling for Purvis the entire time, but I couldn't help myself. On the one hand, we had a man who broke the law, stole from banks across the country (thereby stealing from the bank's customers whether they realized it or not), and killed unsuspecting prison guards, not to mention, in spite of how plot-centric the romance was, was unfaithful to his girlfriend after she went to prison for his sake.

On the other, a farmer's son from South Carolina, a man devoted to true justice, who treated his men well and women, even suspects, with respect and kindness and chivalry.

*Shrug* Call me old fashioned.

In the film, as in American lore, Dillnger is often called a "Robin Hood" figure. Personally I find this very inaccurate. Robin Hood, in his best portrayals was a man looking out for an oppressed poor in a flawed monarchy, a just man in an unjust society. Not to mention his romances were virtuous. John Dillinger, on the other hand, robbed from the rich and gave to whom? Gun suppliers, speakeasies, and of course his own closet.

I read a fine article in a magazine of Jay's about the movie. It mostly focused on the highly accurate guns used, (including the GORGEOUS Mauser that Purvis carried in the Pretty Boy Floyd scene, but I digress...) but it did make some interesting points, being a conservative publication, about the morality of the film.

Christians have a comforting fact we can believe in, something that often perplexes those who don't believe in God's word and law as strongly. And that is that some things truly are black and white;

There is just killing, there is unjust killing.

John Dillinger was a criminal, and a murderer.

Melvin Purvis was an officer of the law.

Perhaps that was why, come the end of the movie, I wasn't sad for Dillinger's fate. I was sad for his "love interest," who spent years in prison for his sake. I was sad for the lives left shattered in the wake of his own. But I wasn't sad that a a man who dealt in death had met his inevitable fate.
One thing that did make me sad? In order to fit their version of the story, the filmmakers carefully worded the end notes to the detriment of dear Mr. Purvis.

Yes, shortly after the death of Mr. Dillinger he resigned from the FBI. However, most FBI historians assert it had more to do with Hoover than guilt over Dillinger. Hoover was all pomp and circumstance, the product of a wily publicist; the film did show this quite well. After several flashy arrests, on the virtue of his excellent record and personal style Mr. Purvis eclipsed his supervisor in the eyes of the press to become an absolute icon for several years. Jealous, Hoover privately pressured the better man to resign. Purvis was never after, nor entirely comfortable with the spotlight; he lived out the rest of his life back in South Carolina, where he practiced law. (And, interestingly enough, became partial inspiration for the timeless character of Atticus Finch.)

Finally, the filmmakers would have you believe, when they say "died by his own hand," that Purvis committed suicide over guilt and inability to live with himself owing to personal compromises he made during the manhunt for Dillinger. Melvin Purvis did die in his home, from a bullet fired from the gun presented to him upon his resignation from the FBI. All evidence suggests that it was a gun cleaning accident. It happens to even the best among firearms handling.

And thus ends my tangent on the late Mr. P, who, having lived in and been a part of Oklahoma and her history, even for a short time, is subject to the

LYDIA SLATTON SEAL OF REPUTATION AND FACT PROTECTION.

That's right. Bring it on, Hollywood. ;)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Ah!

So sorry for the delay, things sudenly swirled into crazy around here. But I do have a plan, sometime in the coming week and a half for another juicy post.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Coming this week...

What I've been up to these past months...In pictures!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Poking my head up again

After a long time, I've decided I need to start blogging again. I have some nice, meaty post ideas in the works, as well as few simple ones and picture posts, namely our newly redone kitchen and the first yields of our brand new garden!

A lot has happened, I can't deny it. But that will come later...for now, I'm glad to be back in blogland!

~ Lydia

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

History, Challenges, and Preparation

Hello, all! It's been some time since I've been able to post, but I've got some time tonight, so I thought I would update.

My discussions in history class have been very fruitful. I have a few classmates who have been surprisingly courageous in backing me up once I've started dialogue. I doubt I am changing our professor's mind, but I do believe I'm helping others like myself not be dissuaded. I have my first test in that class this Friday; wish me luck, we'll see how it goes.

I've found that college is a very indulgent environment, a microcosm largely unaffected by reality. At least half of the students I interact with on a daily basis smoke cigarettes, and another large percentage are involved in illegal drugs or underage drinking. Comments about the way I dress, flippant curse words, and frank talk about immorality are regularly filtered through my ears. I'm very, very grateful I do not live on campus, and can retreat to my home to think things through.

I know that trials are only sanctification tools in the hands of the Lord, and in that I can trust. As a Catholic, I am entering the season of Lent tomorrow. I will be getting up early to participate in a universal ceremony to mark the beginning of the season and remind us of our mortality. As a child, I loved the season of Lent more than any other. That still holds true now. Weeks of solemn chant, reflection, and fasting await me. It could not come at a better time, and I know my dedication to my obligations will keep me grounded in the whirlwind at college.

I wish you all a wonderful night and hope to update again soon.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

...And Pass the Ammunition

I had the good fortune to look ahead in the book we're reading for History, an awful discourse by Howard Zinn. I found out that there's a chapter we should be getting to in a few weeks that deals exclusively with Zinn's perceived treatment of women in American history.

Oh yes, I'm gathering ammo and making notes now. Dr. B says to "bring your guns" to class discussion. Well, that's just what I'm going to do.

Monday, February 2, 2009

On My Mind Today

This evening I've been pondering the words of great men in our country's past. I don't wish to start a political discussion by going into further detail, but there's certainly nothing wrong with reflecting on one of the documents that created this country.

When in the Course of human events it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. — That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, — That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Amid the Cold of Winter


Ice and snow.

Willow Lake, iced over.

The geese of Goose Hill Terrace.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

White Out!

Tomorrow, classes are cancelled, as they were today and Monday afternoon. We're having a mix of snow and ice fall down and make everything pretty hard to drive in. Jay had to come rescue me Monday; unfortunately, that means my car is still stranded in the university parking lot! Our hope is that by tomorrow evening the roads will be good enough to go get it, though.

Mom and Jay are, unfortunately, classified as Essential Personnel in their departments, and as such have not had any days off for weather. So I've been cocooned at home, alternately scrubbing bathtubs and drinking hot cocoa. I've tried out a few more baking soda recipes, and have concluded that 1/4 c of baking soda, 1/4 c of cornstarch, and 3T of coconut oil mixed and stuffed into an empty deodorant container works much better than anything I've ever bought at the store for that purpose! It's definately not "clear dry," however, so if you wear a darker color, you'll have to be careful putting your shirt on.

I've been on a total denim skirt kick lately, and have been using my clothing budget to acquire some nice ones. I may do a clothes post in a few days, just ebcause I'm so excited to have winter clothes that aren't black!

I hope this finds everyone safe and sound. Stay warm!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Around Campus

Friday I took my trusty camera with me to class so that I could give you guys a glimpse into a "day in the academic life" of yours truly. :)



The Nigh Center, the hub of activity around here. The first floor has food, books, and sitting areas, the rest is full of offices pertinent to student interests.


Broncho Lake, and some visiting geese.


The Liberal Arts Building, which houses History, English, Philosophy, etc.


The Music Building.


Old North, one of the original buildings from the school's founding after the Land Run of 1889.


The new Education Building. UCO is known in Oklahoma as the "Teacher's College" because of the large number of education degrees it awards.

Well, there you have it! A tour of the campus, or at least the sights I see each day I'm there. :)

Also, an update on the wisdom teeth; I'm almost 100% healed over now!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

A Matter of Opinion

Recently my dear mother, on persuasion of her boss, has taken up reading the Twilight series of books. I have not read any of them apart from excerpts, and I have no desire to read them in full.

Some of you may recall that I occasionally refer to myself as a "Recovering Goth." Everly, in particular, met me on a day when I was clad in head-to-toe black. I've read just about every piece of vampire literature in existence from the era when the genre became popular, and then some. The popularity of Twilight causes me to reflect on how vampirism was originally portrayed in literature; vampires, for all their glamour, were evil. Vampirism in the original mythos was a perversion so severe that the Devil himself would not accept a vampire's soul. In other tellings, vampires were themselves a form of visible, earth-dwelling demon.

I find it interesting that in our century something once used as a literary device to indicate ultimate evil has been "re-imagined" into something that is merely scientific; an imbalance in chromosomes brought on by infection by a certain venom. I may expand on my thoughts on this later.

I would also like to add this merely as a point of interest, and not in attempt to insult or distress anyone, but Stephanie Meyer's Mormon faith does have an effect on her writing. While this contributes some virtues, such as abstinence, it also raises issues. Her concept of the relationship and marriage between her two main characters is heavily flavored by the Mormon concept of "Sealing" a marriage. I'm no expert in theology, but I would imagine a scholar of Christian religion could find many more references amidst the pages. If you treasure the doctrines of your own denomination, this could unnerve you or raise issues; a devout Catholic (or Baptist, or Adventist, or...), for example, may perceive it to be akin to Mormon propaganda.

Not to mention as far as books go, they're quite poorly written.

This ended up longer than I thought. Hmm. Maybe I should research a bit more and write again.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

A Day of Prayer

I am taking today as an opportunity to pray for our country, its citizens, and its leaders new and established. Our new President has a daunting task ahead of him, as do all those with whom he surrounds himself.

In these uncertain times, what a comfort it is that we can rely on God.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Happy Birthday, General!

Yes, yes, I know it's MLK Day. But so many bloggers, Everly included have that completely taken care of in more eloquence that I could hope to express.

So, I'd like to extend a humble bit of honor to the birthday of a great man, a brilliant military mind, and a pillar of Southern History.



Let's not forget to remember Robert E. Lee, a man Lincoln himself admired.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Ouchie!

I had my wisdom teeth removed today. It was an adventure, to say the very least. But the oral surgeon was very knowledgeable, his assisstants friendly, and his surgery room wallpapered with a giant photograph of a forest path with oak trees, Spanish moss, azalea bushes, and pink roses. Be still my heart! ;) It was certainly the most pleasant dental work I've ever had done.

So, sterile gauze and I shall become good friends for the next 20 hours or so. For all the factors, and the depth of my roots (apparently), it was a relatively uneventful procedure that he said was actually simpler than he thought it would be at first.

Anyway, if you're plauged by wisdom teeth that occasionally like to cut through and hurt very badly, I reccommend going ahead with the procedure. Dr. Johnson actually said I ought to have gotten them out a couple years earlier, before the roots were mature. Apparently my teeth developed really quickly, which makes sense; I was the first one in my kindgergarten class to lose one. It's a very funny story involving a banana and Gullah Gullah Island, but I'll save that for another time.

Well, I'm off to grab a little shut-eye. Oh, by the way, I've been listening like crazy to Deborah Brinson's Let Dixie Remember, which I downloaded from Behemoth.com. It's absolutely gorgeous, and more than half is actual old Southern Civil War songs, or old Southern poems set to music. It's also available on CD from harpofdixie.com. I've also managed to find the lyrics to every last song (believe me, it was a Google treasure hunt!), so if anyone does get it, I'm happy to help out. ;)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

*Whew*

Well, today was my second day of college. Allow me to say it's interesting, and is going to continue to be so.

I have already learned so much in my first two days of music that it's my favorite class so far. Everything from my piano days is rushing back to me, and I'm really looking forward to deepening my understanding as time goes by.

My history teacher is very funny, and very knowledgable. The supplementary reader he has assigned us is very Marxist in interpretive nature, but I don't much mind. He's said that as long as I keep an open mind and am respectful, I am more than welcome to "butt heads" with him on historical interpretation.

English is a little disappointing, I must say. It will be my simplest class I can tell, but I do love writing prompts, and it's good to have peer review/editing as well as the opinions of an older expert.

Psychology is a requirement at my college, and so I'm glad I'm getting it out of the way first semester. It's all moral grey areas and pseudoscience as far as I've seen. Psychology is a pretty modern study, and is very subjective and bound by popular opinion. It is a large class, however, so hopefully I can pass through unnoticed.

Last night, I attended the official Watch Party for Crystal Darkness Oklahoma,a meth awareness campaign and documentary. It was an amazing night, very heavy and moving. When all was said and done, the planning committee, for which I was a consultant on certain aspects, was brimming with emotion. I've never gotten so many bear hugs from so many people in my life before.

Well, the mail is here! I'm off, lovelies.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Wish Me a Little Luck...

...And a lot of strength. Tomorrow is my first day of college! I'm looking forward to my classes with a certain amount of trepidation. I'm taking:

American History, Origins-1877
English Composition
Intro to Basic Music Skills
Psychology

The last one I'm not terribly excited about, but the other three sound fantastic! I'm hoping that my mind will be able to sift through the falsehoods and political correctness so that I can gain only positive from my experience.

As far as a major, I'm considering either Philosophy or Humanities.

I promise I'll blog about my first day! :)

Friday, January 9, 2009

Baking Soda!

I love baking soda. It is my new favorite household item. Today, I have scrubbed countertops, cleaned the sink, and done all manner of amazing things with simple, humble baking soda. Rather than needing six or seven cleaners, all I needed was a little baking soda and some water, and in some cases a pinch of vinegar to get to the tough things out. It's kind of fun to play chemist in your sink, and even soaked-in black paint goes away in a snap.

I've also found that a paste of 4 parts baking soda and one part water is the single best thing you can use to clean a toilet. In addition to the fantastic cleaning job, it deodorizes and gives off a great scent, completely free of any chemical odor.

I'm also getting ready to make a few personal care products, such as deodorant and toothpaste, myself, and I'll post those results as well.

Also, I've found that mineral oil with a pinch of lemon juice makes a fantastic furniture polish!

Monday, January 5, 2009

New Year's Resolutions

For this year, I am determined to do all of my cleaning with simple ingredients. No more nasty chemicals for me! Vinegar and baking soda for all-purpose cleaning, mineral oil and lemon juice for furniture polish, and flax seed oil for leather polish. Wish me luck!

In the coming days, I'll also be posting reading lists and such for the next 12 months.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Lemonade!



Dear Miss Everly has awarded me the Lemonade Blog Award, in honor of my pruported ability to make good things out of bad situations. *blush* I'm very flattered.

The conditions of the award are that I must post about it, picture included, and pass on the award. So...I pass it to the lovely Maggie Clitheroe and to dear Leigh, who make some wonderful lemonade. ;)